My
sweet little Addison has found herself smack dap in the middle of a very clumsy
stage of life. She literally gets hurt 6 times a day… Maybe even more. Most of
her accidental injuries come with nice bumps and bruises on her head and face.
The other day she was playing tag with Braden. She thought (in her 22 month old
mind) that she would be faster running backwards I guess… So she decided to run
as fast as her little legs could go backwards. Now… Obviously this was a
terrible decision and would not end well no matter what. Nonetheless, she was determined.
She was pretty persistent for a while and then she started tripping over her
own feet. The same feet that she relies on (without thinking) to stand, walk,
and run. The same feet that usually never fail, tripped her up so bad that she
slammed into our glass end table. She slammed into it so hard that the entire
table moved several inches. You could see the indentations from where the glass
table used to be. Her response surprised me though. She screamed for about a
minute then she looked at me with such amount of pride and happiness and said…
“I did it mommy.” Unsure whether she was proud of the running backwards or
hitting the table so hard that she moved it… I just smiled and said “Yes you
did.” I sat in amazement (as I often do with my children) with how my sweet girl
responded to a very bad situation. Although, she definitely was hurt, confused,
and sad for a moment; she chose to not stay in that place. She chose to focus
on the positive. She did something incredible in her mind; something she has
never done before. She ran backwards and she moved a glass end table with her
head.
As
I sat there I was a bit envious of how my little girl’s mind worked. A bit
envious of the simplicity but very precise way of thinking. I wondered what it
would be like if I chose to have the same mindset of my child? What would
happen if I chose to focus on the positive in the middle of a storm? What would
happen if I chose to not worry about the outcome and chose to focus on God and
Him alone? It is so easy to say we are positive thinking people; so easy to say
we strive to only focus on God… But actually living a life that way is
seemingly impossible at times. Or is it?
I
honestly believe I find myself in very clumsy stages of life at times. When
storms arise, when things do not make sense, and when the outcome is not clear
or in sight; I trip over my own feet. The same feet that I rely on every day
without thinking, the same feet that usually know exactly where they are going,
and the same feet that usually step with confidence each day knowing who it is
that directs the steps somehow begin to trip me up.
My
own feet fail me.
Instead
of stepping in confidence, I step in my insecurities.
Instead
of stepping precisely, I waiver.
Instead
of stepping and knowing exactly who is in charge, I step and step and work and
work and worry and worry and try and try… All while mistakenly thinking somehow
I can change the outcome.
I
choose to focus on the storm. I choose to let my clumsy stage of life direct my
path and my way of thinking. Although the storms and circumstances usually
bring about pain, confusion, and sadness; it is only my decision to stay there;
to stay in that dark way of thinking; to stay in a place where hope seems too
far to reach. It is only my decision to be clumsy. It is only my decision to
let my feet fail me. God is already there (Psalm 139: 1-10). He is already
willing and ready to catch me when I fall (Psalm 37:24, Psalm 118:13, Psalm
94:18). He is already working and bringing forth something amazing (Romans
8:28); something that has never been done before. He is just waiting for me to
rely on Him; waiting for me to have faith be my stability (Romans 1:17, 1
Corinthians 2:5). He is waiting for me to stop worrying about the outcomes and
start living and walking in the truth (3 John 1:4).
He
will carry me when my feet cannot go on anymore (Psalm 46, Isaiah 63:9).
He
will guide me when I lose my way (Psalm 48:14).
I
know most of you have heard the song “Oceans
(Where Feet May Fail)” before. I have mixed feelings about that song…
Possibly because I have heard it and sung it too many times… But no matter how
you feel about that song you cannot deny how much power lies within the words. I
wanted to add the lyrics for you today. Sometimes it is wise to just read the
lyrics before you even sing a song; to not only read them but actually think
about what the words mean. How crazy would it be if we did not just sing this
song but actually lived it out?
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds
me
You've never failed and You won't start
now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without
borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever
wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Oh, Jesus, you're my God!
I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine
Our feet will
fail us.
Fear will
surround us.
Waters will
seem deep and waves will be treacherous.
Clumsy may be
the only way to describe our life at times…But… there is One who never fails.
He will not fail.
He cannot fail. He is ours and we are His!!
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